Tell me, how do I tell my soul to stop feeling? How do I speak to something I can’t touch with my hands or see with my eyes? How is still possible to leave claw marks on something, which doesn’t exist physically?
I’ll be honest, I’m a little bit of a loner. It’s been a big part of my maturing process to learn to allow people to support me. I tend to be very self reliant and private. And I have this history of wanting to work things out on my own and protect people from what’s going on with me..
Maybe one day you’ll come back.
Maybe you never will and that’ll suck, but you can’t keep doing this.
The blame and the self loathing and the bull, I can’t watch that. It makes me hate you for hating yourself. I don’t want to lose you but I’d rather lose you if it means you’ll be happy. I think if you come back with me today, you’ll never be okay and I’ll never be okay if you aren’t.
I need to know that there’s a way for people like us to end up okay. I need to know that there even is such a thing as okay, maybe even good and it’s out there and we just haven’t found it yet. There’s got to be a happier ending than this, here. There’s got to be a better story because we deserve one..you deserve one even if it doesn’t end with you coming back to me.
